Memories

PEace........

LOve it.........

MisSter represents Girl Power

MisSter is an awesome girl band from taiwan. I believe they will be the next big thing in the entertainment world. Especially with their androgynous image, fancy dance moves and sense of fashion, they definitely would bring the stereotypical girly image to the next level. Despite having both female and male characteristics that give a new flavor to the music world but also resemble the diversity of women, that bring out both their tough and gentle side. Certain people may see it as a confusion in sexuality but i totally disagree with that.With our generation now, there are no longer a definitive line between female and male. So what if females look tougher than males, or does not possess enough feminism. Who to blame? Face the fact, women can be better or as equally good as men.

How did i get to know about them was through the constant follow ups from carol's blog. She is one of the group member and once a week i will go on to her blog and check out her latest postings. Its like an obsession a friend of mine said, she thought i was a crazy fan who is stalking her life. Hello??? i am not insane ok, i am just curious about whats going on in her life and how she is doing? Since i am not her friend and we cant make any conversation so the only way in getting to know her more is to go onto her blog.

I love MisSter and CAROL! (quoted by my crazy friend who teases me all the time 24/7)

Making dream into reality

Racheal and i put on our braces in June last year. It was kinda crazy to have my cousin's gf doing the same thing at the same time. It was even crazier when i found out she have too been dreaming about putting on her braces since her teenage years. She was complaining about her dracula teeth while i was complaining about my bulky teeth. Be it what so ever reason we have, we both took years to make our dream into reality. I still remember when i was in my 15 or so, i was close to having my braces on. I had all the x rays and documents ready and left with the extraction of tooth. But when i got into the surgery room, i freaked out and back out at the very last min. That cowardy move eventually turn into regrets and never left since. Once your regards have taken root it will be almost impossible to remove it until you turn that regards into action. It took me alot of courage to finally come to my own consensus that its time to put my constant complain into work.

A Come Back

It's been 4 months since i was away. I had done alot and had discovered lots more about myself. Its been a great 4 months of reflection and within these 4 months there were happy times and bad times. When you go through a series of reflections you tend to ask yourself alot of question and while doing so you may ended up either hating or loving yourself more. You start to see yourself as a different individual, to discriminate the bad points and embrace the good points. I will be posting a string of photos that was taken for the past few months. As i believe, photos tells it all.

MA..... WHere IS my TedDy BeAr LaH

When was the last time you misses someone that is very dear to your heart? When was the last time you hug that someone before saying goodbye? When was the last time you thought that you dont care about them and when they go away you just misses them badly. When was the last time you say something sweet to that person and not knowing it would be the last time? Neither one of these points came into my mine before till now. There is this really unexplainable feeling that came into me today. It is like saying goodbye to your favorite teddy bear, one moment you are hugging it and the next it was gone (cos your mom find its too much of a salty/fishy smell that she could not stand it much longer). I thought i was able to handle goodbyes but in the end i was badly affected by it. I hate goodbyes as they hurt.....

Scaredi Cat !!!!!!!!

This morning i had my H1N1 Vaccination. Although i am now in my midz twenties but i am still quite fearful of taking jabs. Anything that has a sharp pointed ends will always give me a twinkling feeling as if i am being placed on the hanging stand waiting to be hang. I have once heard from a talk show, whatever that you are fearful of e.g. water, knifes,fire and etc. Most likely in your previous life you were caused by the death of it. Maybe i was once either being poke to death or stab to death thats why i am so fearful of all those pointed ends. ~ ZZZZ
Back to my H1N1 Jab! Because of this stupid jab, last night i could not stop my anxiety over this matter. I had nightmares and disturbance throughout the night. I either dreamt of lizards falling all over me or i kept waking up by an unknown fear. I cannot stop questioning myself on why i am such a scaredi cat. Even when i stood infront of the doctor who had a ready needle in his hand, i can't stopped asking for my reassurances from him by making him speaks with a few comforting words. "Dont worry, it will just be a quick jab, i will just poke it in and you will be fine before you know it."~sounded familiar yah, did i heard this before when i was still in my single digit years?

Soulmate

Have you ever heard of this word call the Soulmate?Do you believe in finding one?Do you know what it defines? There was an author who describes soulmate as dividing 1 soul into 2 and from there they live by different lifes but yet when they meet they connect together as 1. How beautiful this description is but in the actual way of life, do you think such creation exist? My way of defining Soulmate would be having someone who can accept you for who you are. Someone who can understand you by a single movement; be it a blink in the eye or a slight change in gesture. Someone who allows you to speak freely and express your thoughts without any hesitation that it will ended up in an arguement. Just that someone who can blend into your life so comfortably and so easily without remoulding the actual you. This is my definition! But out of the millions of living soul, do you think that special someone do exists under the same sky, breathing through the same air? I believe that after all, many times when we don't come across one we will ended up creating one. For instance, is by either changing yourself or expecting he/she to change in order to fit into that so call "Soulmate wannabe" term. Despite the differences you see you will still try to hope and endure the differences between 2 person in order to believe that you are actually living in the Soulmate Fairtale! So after all what is the true definition of a soulmate? Since we ourselves are involved in the recreation of the actual definition.