Moment of Truth

In life the scary thing is that when you make a mistake you can never turn back time and amend it. Sometimes, i wished that accident never happen so that my life would not have changed so much. Yet again when you hope and wish for a better life, life will still remain as cruel as ever.Since the accident i felt that i was hurt not just emotionally but physically as well. Especially my memory, i have trouble remembering things and each time i fail to recall i blame myself. When this problem was shared with friends, they would say that its my mind that is playing the trick or i should stop thinking too much and its affecting my memory. It's always about me creating my own problem. Living in such agony can kill your faith slowly with time. BUT, maybe is the help of GOD, he show be some light recently. I visited an osteopathic doc with my initial intention of seeking treatment for my backbone problem. However throughout the consultation i was devastated and started crying like a baby. What did the doc say? She says that my spine had undergo trama during the accident and with my history of osteolysis, my spine had twisted its position. Another words would be it had affected my nervous system within the spine and all these leads to emotional depression, character changes and MEMORY LOST. That was a moment of truth, a truth that i have been seeking for the past 2 years. Its like telling you that you are not crazy and what you doubt on yourself are all true. At that moment tears came flowing down like stream of rivers. ~ Thank you DR LOO for your enlightenment, its good enough to keep my faith alive.