Moment of Truth

In life the scary thing is that when you make a mistake you can never turn back time and amend it. Sometimes, i wished that accident never happen so that my life would not have changed so much. Yet again when you hope and wish for a better life, life will still remain as cruel as ever.Since the accident i felt that i was hurt not just emotionally but physically as well. Especially my memory, i have trouble remembering things and each time i fail to recall i blame myself. When this problem was shared with friends, they would say that its my mind that is playing the trick or i should stop thinking too much and its affecting my memory. It's always about me creating my own problem. Living in such agony can kill your faith slowly with time. BUT, maybe is the help of GOD, he show be some light recently. I visited an osteopathic doc with my initial intention of seeking treatment for my backbone problem. However throughout the consultation i was devastated and started crying like a baby. What did the doc say? She says that my spine had undergo trama during the accident and with my history of osteolysis, my spine had twisted its position. Another words would be it had affected my nervous system within the spine and all these leads to emotional depression, character changes and MEMORY LOST. That was a moment of truth, a truth that i have been seeking for the past 2 years. Its like telling you that you are not crazy and what you doubt on yourself are all true. At that moment tears came flowing down like stream of rivers. ~ Thank you DR LOO for your enlightenment, its good enough to keep my faith alive.

Dance Your Heart Out

I took up my courage and posted this new video. As mentioned before, i took up some dancing classes during the weekends. Although after weeks of training i still consider myself a poor student who possess a weak rythmic and coordination skill. But again thinking on the brighter side, to be able to complete a dance routine and without giving up i guess its already an achievement. I will not be surprise if after watching the clip there will be 2 sorts of remark.
1) she is looking fat like a whale 2)this kinda standard also can show people ah. Despite from all these possible negative remarks i have decided to compose myself with my own comforting words:"at least you have manage to work this out without giving up on yourself."So with this, i took up my courage to share this clip with my friends! ENJOY YO.......

Goodbye

Today's blog is dedicated especially to my dear friend Ying Ying who had recently lost her special friend. After reading your blog, i could understand your grief towards girl girl's departure. In life nothing stays forever and each time when its time to say goodbye it is never easy.

When we first arrive into this world, we came in tears while we brought along the joy of our love ones. However when it is time to leave this world we left in silence while we left our love ones in tears. Sadly to say this is the reality of LIFE! There maybe times when we claim that god is cruel and heartless but again if we were to look at a different angle. You will realise that if you were given a second chance to say no to this meeting, your final answer will still be yes. Why?It is because underneath it all you clearly understand that no matter how painful it is to say goodbye but for the 9 years that she had spent living under your shelter. She had brought your family with countless memories that are so dear to your heart and with this her memories will last forever in you. Ying, although she had left this world but i believe throughout her stay she must have felt lucky to be part of your family and we this she had left peacefully.

Enclosed

I have been visiting and stopping at other people's blog recently. In their blog, they are able to share their feelings so openly with others and that kind of openess is not easy to achieve. Can hou imagine is like you are sharing so much of your personal feelings to whom you don't know or know so little of you. In another words,its like stripping yourself naked and standing in a crowd of strangers to allow them to see through you. Initially when i started my blog, i was able to share my feelings with others but not knowing when i had sealed my feelings away. The more i blogged the least i could share. OH MY GOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ALICIA STOP BEING SUCH AN IDIoT. OPEN U OPEN UP!!!!!!!!P

Old School Gathering

Boyi, Su Su, Jolin and family

Vegetarian Food ~Prepared by Boyi's Mom

Baby Jolin soooooo CUTE!!!

Jie Ying's RETURN..... WooLALA

When i mention Old School, i don't exactly mean my old schoolmates. What i meant was a catch up time with the old time friends from NZ. Boyi and Susu brought their baby boy Jolin back from NZ for 3 weeks holiday. This cute baby boy looks exactly like MUMMY and with his rosy cheek i just can't help it but wanting to kiss him. Due to the hot weather here baby jolin kept scratching his chubby cheek~ SOOOO SUPER DUPER CUTEEEEEEEEE. We suppose to sympathize this poor chap but because he looked soo cute i thought it will be okay for him to scratch his way..... hee. Not forgetting Jie Ying is back for a Wee while, in fact that WEee means 10 days. She didnt change much just abit more feminine as compared to last time ~ thats Adeline's comment la. As for me i still find her as feminine as before. Jie Ying said that she will be coming back to work so long there are opportunities here ~ I will pray for you gal.

Freaky KLownz.... MY LOVE!!!

Last Sunday night along with my 3 friends we went to watch "The Big Groove". Its an AWESOME performance by famous dance troops from all over asia. There were Cool Mint,WCO,funky jazz from Japan,All Star from Philipine,SD crew from HK, Freaky Klownz from Taiwan and etc. MY GOD they dance soooooo well, after watching them both adeline and i lost our motivation towards our JB dancing class. MAN~ The standards are way way below the ones we have seen, so it kinda kill our admiration towards our JB teacher.FREAKY KLOWNZ what can i say, although they are not the best but they are always the best in my heart.~oh yeh!!!!!~ Especially the team leader Qui Qui, she can dance so well i am so taken by her moves.On the day of the performance, while we were queueing up for the entrance we met her and thanks to my friend. I have finally taken a DREAM PICTURE with her. After the photo taking i was so nervous i kept smiling to myself and esther said to me:" You look so cute when you smile like that." Have i not been cute before this???? ESTHER ONG are you blind?

Freaky KLownz.... MY LOVE!!!

Last Sunday night along with my 3 friends we went to watch "The Big Groove". Its an AWESOME performance by famous dance troops from all over asia. There were Cool Mint,WCO,funky jazz from Japan,All Star from Philipine,SD crew from HK, Freaky Klownz from Taiwan and etc. MY GOD they dance soooooo well, after watching them both adeline and i lost our motivation towards our JB dancing class. MAN~ The standards are way way below the ones we have seen, so it kinda kill our admiration towards our JB teacher.
FREAKY KLOWNZ what can i say, although they are not the best but they are always the best in my heart.~oh yeh!!!!!~ Especially the team leader Qui Qui, she can dance so well i am so taken by her moves.On the day of the performance, while we were queueing up for the entrance we met her and thanks to my friend. I have finally taken a DREAM PICTURE with her. After the photo taking i was so nervous i kept smiling to myself and esther said to me:" You look so cute when you smile like that." Have i not been cute before this???? ESTHER ONG are you blind? BTW i also found out that my idol has a Slight BO.... But well its the best BO EVER!!!!!!!!! Kidding la....